Letting go, with time
I went on a retreat recently, and two things stood out for
me on that weekend: We wrote down and burned what wanted to let go of, and we
were asked to design our superhero emblem.
Immediately the image of a diamond
with many facets, popped into my mind. An uncut diamond needs to be polished for
each facet to sparkle and shine brightly.
Burning my list was just the start of letting go, but it's a
starting point. In recognising what I was willing to let go of, and burning it,
I feel as if I have started a process of transformation.
I realised this when I was cleaning house this afternoon. I
realised all that I have been storing under the bed, and how much I have to
keep pulling out from under the bed to hoover underneath.
Perhaps we keep
shifting things around when we're in a relationship, too. If we haven't dealt with
it, we realise we have stuff under the bed and we have to pull it out to clean.
So we resent doing it, or perhaps we just don't do it at all, we let it gather
dust. And in time we hide it from others also, and we stop letting them in
because we don’t want to admit what’s there.
I'm not willing do to this any more, so I'm only keeping the essentials.
I'm willing to look into every corner of my house and my mind, and to decide
and evaluate whether what is there is going to help me move forward, or not.
And if it's not “useful, beautiful or joyful” as Regina Brett
says, I'm letting it go, even if it takes time.
Because I have finally realised that deep down I'm that diamond
that needs to be polished, one facet at a time.
Purlgirl xx
